When Parents Make Mistakes

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I never knew a hiss could be earsplitting till that moment. Till the moment she exploded, I assumed she was listening with only 1 ear. 

I had prattled on while she busied herself with one of her never-ending, must-be-done-right-now chores. 

“What do you MEAN I made MISTAKES? Parents don't MAKE mistakes!” Even now almost 25 years later, I can hear her wrath and feel the heat of her gaze.

If I tell you the truth, it will be embarrassing. The scene exploding around me was born earlier in the day. I was with a group of young wives and a couple of ones that had been married a while. The one doing most of the talking drove me NUTS. As in: I'd rather have listened to chalk squeal the length of a 2-block long chalk board than tolerate her voice for 10 seconds. 

July 2009

They said she was Phi Beta Kappa smart. She seemed as ditzy as I have acted all day long today. When her mouth moved, my secret set of inner eyeballs rolled around in disgust. I know. It wasn't Christian of me at all. I embarrass myself admitting it all these years later.

In the midst of the discussion that day, she said something that jerked me bolt upright on the chair in which I'd been slouching while praying for a nap to deliver me. 

“As a parent, you will make mistakes. Forgive yourself. God is Sovereign. He is Sovereign over everything...even the mistakes you make as a parent. So, season your parenthood with prayer. Ask forgiveness of God and of your children when you blow it. Then, forgive yourself and let God, in his Sovereignty, redeem your mistakes."

I sat there trying not to look slack-jawed in amazement and wondered where she had been hiding all that wisdom. Even today, I shake my head in wonder.

After the get together, I went to visit my mom. In my state of newly-wedded naivete, it never occurred to me that she would take exception to the wisdom I was sharing. I started out telling her how amazed I was that this formerly uninspiring individual got my attention and held it. 

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I told Mom what a relief the concept had been to me: “Parents make mistakes. All parents. I am so relieved to think of it from this new perspective.” That's when she blew like a newly dug oil well!

My perfectly mannered Southern Belle of a mamma went all postal on me. I might be slow to learn sometimes, but I caught on real quick-like that day. I called her attention to a speck of dust she missed and narrowly avoided annihilation by getting her to again focus on her 1^st love: cleaning. 

That speck of dust probably saved my life so that I could practice failing as a parent. I think she finally forgave me when she met my sons. Actually, they distracted her enough that she didn't mind me so much anymore! Maybe.

With all due respect to my mother and to the Phi Beta Kappa ditz of long ago, that nugget of truth has remained with me all the 22 years of my parenting life. On the days when I have single-handedly broken my own heart with one parenting mistake after another, I have heard those words, “Season your parenting with prayer, forgive yourself, and let God, in his Sovereignty, redeem your mistakes."

Boy, have I needed that gem this week. In fact, I've even day dreamed about apologizing to that Phi Beta Kappa beauty queen. You see, I have failed at parenting every single day this week. No one is bleeding, and we are all still speaking. But, it has not been pretty. At all. 

August 2010

Parenting is hard under the best of circumstances. Parenting a kid on the Asperger's Spectrum is enough to break you about 3 times a day if not 3 times an hour.

Despite our best efforts to communicate, I totally mis-read Son #2 this week. The walls vibrated from the intensity of our loud, hot, angry, desperate voices. By the time understanding dawned, our cheeks were soaked in the tears of failure and mutual disgust. When we were both spent, I was so tired I could barely blink.

We wept. I prayed and asked God to forgive us for our anger and for my failure. I asked him to redeem the mess I'd made of things. I looked in Son #2's eyes and said, “I'm sorry. I understand. I can address the situation that perplexes you.” I did my best to do so.

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Later that day, he came to me, bent over almost double, and wrapped his arms around me. How did he get to be so tall? 

“Mom, I'm sorry. I don't know how things got so messed up. What can I do to help make things better?” 

I'd love to tell you that we all lived happily ever after. We haven't. First weeks back into the routine of school after a holiday are enough to break us both. I tremble at the unmitigated mess I can make of things. I take a deep breath, sigh, and summon back the scene from long ago. 

I am slumping ever lower in my chair wishing I could listen to squeaky chalk. My self-absorption arrests when the Phi Betta Kappa speaks: “God is Sovereign over your mistakes.”

Oh, Dear Lord, if ever that is true, let this be the week. Let this be the day. Consecrate my parenting before your eyes. Redeem my failures, and make my sons who you want them to be in spite of me. In spite of me.

Courtesy B. Creasy  -  2010

Love you long and strong, fraidy cat. God is Sovereign. Even over your mistakes. I hope you will carry those words with you as long as I have and that they will encourage you to keep moving forward even when you feel as tho' failure is all you know. See you soon? 

Proverbs 16:3 (NIV)

Commit your work to the LORD, and your plans will be established.

Psalm 37:24 (NLT)

Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the LORD holds them by the hand.

 

How's That New Life Diet Working For Ya?

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Ok, fraidy cats. Time to 'fess up'. A week ago, I encouraged us all toward a kinder, gentler 'life diet'. Sounded easier than it is, didn't it? In the spirit of true confessions, I'll confess. I've taken 2 steps forward and 3 backward some days. Other days, I've taken 3 forward and 2 backward. If I gave in to my fraidy cat nature, I'd throw my hands up in the air, declare this newly born year a disaster in the making, and give up till next year this time.

I can tell how far I've come since last May. Can you? Here's a clue: I am not giving in to my fraidy cat nature. Life keeps on happening till you are not here for it to happen anymore. Our job between now and then is to face the horizon and keep walking. So, I have. Instead of declaring the year over before it began, I decided to be kinder and gentler to me. That decision enabled me to regroup and keep on moving when life happened too fast for me to keep up. 

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Goal #1 was to grade my daily relationship 'report card' using the fruits of the Spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. I know I struggle the most with showing patience. However, the fact that Son #2 lived to tell about coming down at midnight for a snack tells you I've made some progress in this area! He'd tell you I was totally unloving. I'd tell you he wasn't bleeding after our encounter. Get my drift? Stay tuned as I continue to grade my report card.

Goal #2 involved thinking through short term and long term goals and working on 3 short term ones this last week. I thought through the goals with fear and trepidation. You know how afraid I am of goals coming back to haunt me. For the 1^st time in a LONG time, I didn't feel quite so afraid of life jumping up and biting me for having the courage to try.

The short term goals? That's where all that backward and forward motion came in! I exercised 4 days instead of 5. I did track my eating

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but not as closely as I'd hoped. However, I did lose 6 pounds this week. I'd dance a jig but that's only half of what I gained since August. I'll save the dancing till I'm back to square 1! 

 

The post-Christmas de-cluttering is well underway but not done as I'd hoped. I didn't even TOUCH the desk drawers I'd hoped to re-organize. I decided to call the unfinished goals 'job security'.

Today, just under the wire, I managed to carve out time to make the conference call to my writer friend in Wisconsin. I really didn't want to have to tell you people that I didn't get that done either! You are such demanding task masters. Oh wait. That task master would be me, wouldn’t it?

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My final goal for the week was to work toward getting more rest. Stop. I hear you laughing. Yes, I know it is 1 AM. Yes, I know it is routinely 1-3 AM before I manage to slow down enough to sleep. But, I AM working on it. I AM. I've actually closed my eyes by midnight a couple times in the last 7 days.

As I head on off toward the rest of the year, things are looking up. I owe that to you and to friends who are taking this journey along with me. Today, as Colleen and I met via Skype to discuss the state of our writing careers, we commiserated about our fears. As we began to troll the internet for writing work, I suddenly began to feel encouraged. Having her along to look at things with me made EVERYTHING we looked at look a lot LESS scary. How cool is that?

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Even tho' it hurts to admit I didn't hit all my goals again, I am exuberant that I was able to SET some goals and move toward them. You and I both know I couldn't have done so last year this time if my life depended on it! While I was not getting some of my goals zipped up and checked off, I was working with friends toward other goals that I didn't even envision last week this time. Life is about give and take. I get that now. Do you? Once you do, it is a lot easier to embrace this kinder, gentler life diet.

What have I been tellin' ya, fraidy cat? I told you we needed each other. I told you this little part of cyberspace was a safe place to come in from the cold. Even tho' I had no idea where we were headed, I knew if we kept walking together, things were going to look a lot better before we got where we were going. So, why don't you keep on walking with me a while longer? 

Life is hard. It's scary. It's lonely. Most of the time, you can't tell anyone how afraid you are or how hard you feel like you are paddling to stay afloat. You have to keep your mask on, or someone will know what an imposter you are. Not here, fraidy cat. Not here. We are all in recovery here. Masks not required to hang out with those who are inhabiting this little corner of fraidy cat nation. 

 

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Love you long and strong. See you real soon. Or, I'll have no choice but to come looking for you! ;-)

Ecclesiastes 4:9-12

Two are better than one, because they have a good [more satisfying] reward for their labor; For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow. But woe to him who is alone when he falls and has not another to lift him up! Again, if two lie down together, then they have warmth; but how can one be warm alone? And though a man might prevail against him who is alone, two will withstand him. A threefold cord is not quickly broken.

My Epiphany and My Wish for Yours....

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I was new there and really had no idea who the man was. I showed up because it was what I did in those days. I showed up. I didn't know anyone, and no one knew me. But, I had been entranced from my 1^st visit.

I kept showing up because the pastor was amazing. Despite all the years I had spent on a church pew, not a week went by that he didn't tell me something I had never heard before. Or, he told me what I knew but added more information so that I came away feeling smarter and more able to walk in faith every week.

I grew up in old time revival services of the 60's which were known to last as long as 5 weeks. Congregants took only 1 night a week off to catch up on laundry and chores. You'd think with all that church-going, I'd have had a PhD in theology by the time I was 18. I was just as surprised as you that the fella could teach an old church dog like me new tricks. So, I kept showing up to see if he could teach me anything else.

The particular night I found the new and improved name for 'Revival' was 'Bible Conference'. A guest speaker was there. The place was packed. You could feel the buzz of excitement in the air vibrate under your skin. The standing room only crowd included high school-aged kids who hung on every word and took furious notes. All these years later, I know the conference speaker was a noted, famous theologian. No wonder the place was packed out. Ignorance is bliss when you don't know the famous people in the room.

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The crowd quieted as the fella began to speak his peace. Honestly, he bored me. Don't tell Mamma I said that. I had opted not to leave because of the enormity of the crowd and the difficulty of climbing over the folks between me and the aisle. I was through biting the inside of my cheek to stay awake. I had finished counting ceiling tiles. I had gone to promising myself and God that if I could get out of the place without snoring, I'd skip the rest of the conference and return when my speaker of choice was back in the pulpit.

Just as my head was about to loll back on my shoulders a la Peppermint Patty of Peanut's fame, the fella's tone changed. I sat up straight. In a few more words, I was on the edge of my seat. “I have a question for you...name one thing God cannot do.”

The audience began to buzz again as quiet discussions broke out. Dismay began to ripple across the audience. “Why...there is nothing God cannot do,” replied an audience member brave enough to speak up.

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The speaker smiled. “Think about it. There is one thing God cannot do.” He stepped back from the audio equipment and allowed more time for the unlearned among us to work on his riddle.

The winning answer made so much sense. Why had I never thought of it before? I bet the young man was a seminarian himself. He was smug and sure of himself when he spoke up, “God cannot betray his nature or his word.”

The speaker's smile broke wide open. “Exactly,” he held up his Bible in agreement, “God cannot betray his own nature nor his word. If he promised it between the covers of this book, he must honor the promise or betray his own nature. The one thing God cannot do is betray himself.” It was not January 6, but it was my moment of epiphany.

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The life pit that opened up beneath me between 1999-2010 has been deep and dark. My situation was fraught with opportunities to develop situational depression. Chronic situational depression led to deeper depression. Before it was over, my counselor said I was in the throws of Severe Trauma Reaction, PTSD's near cousin.

Climbing out has required a combination of meds, counseling, steadfast friends, and steadfast determination. My faith has not always been steadfast. In the worst of times, I'd call MYSELF and leave a voice mail to remind me that my situation was temporary. This too would pass...whatever the 'this' of the day was.

Even when I thought God had forgotten me, I could hear the theologian's question ring, “Name one thing God cannot do.” I would remind myself that God could not betray his own nature nor the promises in his word that are based upon that nature. Even when I could not see how my pain was part of that fulfillment, I clung – with desperate determination – to that truth. A truth I discovered when I was in a place that no one knew my name. A place I went because all I could do was keep showing up.

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I see you, fraidy cat. Maybe the folks around you know your name but have no idea the pain searing through your heart. You spend your days going thru the basics of life doing only what has to be done. Are you just showing up in places where no one knows your name because that is all there is left to do? I see you.

Your Heavenly Father, the God who created you, sees you too. He has promised to complete what he has started in you and said it was a GOOD WORK. He has promised that he created you with a special purpose in mind that only you can fulfill.

May everyday of 2012 be an EPIPHANY for you. May you discover a little more each day the purpose he has for you. May you find yourself equipped a little more each day to put that plan into place. 

 

Ephesians 2:10 (Amplified Bible)

For we are God's [own] handiwork (His workmanship), recreated in Christ Jesus, [born anew] that we may do those good works which God predestined (planned beforehand) for us [taking paths which He prepared ahead of time], that we should walk in them [living the good life which He prearranged and made ready for us to live].

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Galatians 6: 9 (Amplified Bible)

And let us not lose heart and grow weary and faint in acting nobly and doing right, for in due time and at the appointed season we shall reap, if we do not loosen and relax our courage and faint.

Truth or Consequences at the OK Corral (aka Blogosphere)

The words came leaping off the screen like a lion going for the jugular. The force threw me back onto my chair. I realized I was gasping for breath as if I had just had all the wind knocked out of me. If words ever take human form, I think I met the verbal equivalent of Hannibal Lecter or Jason of Friday the 13th, both horror flick dudes. My visitor might as well have worn a mask as he came bearing the moniker 'Anonymous'. So easy to hide behind that disguise! 

 

It was bound to happen sooner or later given the wild west nature of the blogosphere. Unlike most of my blogging friends, I had not activated the comment moderation feature of my blog. Trust is a good thing, and I trusted my reading public. Till he came along. Sadly, I have joined my wiser friends with more blogging experience. Those of you who have been kind enough to comment in the past will note the addition of that feature if/when you ever post again. (Thank you for your patient understanding as this blog community grows.)

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I considered my visitor's attack for several minutes and then decided to exercise my administrator's option by hitting the delete button. It was a sad day. (The only other time I've done so, I was just learning my way around Blogger. I did it by accident and emailed the posters to apologize profusely.) I did not delete on this occasion with a superior snarl or a sense of smug satisfaction. The words did as intended. They made me doubt myself and 2^nd guess my journey. When you read them, you will understand why:

Gnostic rubbish... I did this and I did that.. just seeking her own glory. The first sentence begins with " I " and the last sentence ends with "I". All this self-glorying is the opposite of Jn. [John] 3:30" He must increase, but I must decrease."  [American King James version]

After several hours, I realized that good fellow could not have been a regular visitor to this haven for fraidy cats. If so, I think he would have been a bit softer in his approach. Attitudes like his are the very ones that drive folks who struggle with their faith to avoid transparency. Harsh approaches like his drive us to pretend our lives are perfect even when we are in pain and our lives are secretly falling apart. 
 

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This is a SAFE place for fraidy cats. I understand your fear of judgment and your fear that you will never be Holy enough for the people you know as well as the people who wouldn't recognize you if they saw you walking down the street. People like my recent visitor remind me how scary that fear is and how lonely it is when judgment falls upon you despite your best efforts to walk worthy.

My heart grew sad for someone so determined to reproach me via a kamikaze-type attack. Since he was kind enough to point me to a scriptural rebuke, I wonder why he did not think of this verse when he felt the need to put me in my place:

Matthew 18:15 (English Standard version)

If your brother sins against you, go and tell him his fault, between you and him alone. If he listens to you, you have gained your brother.

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I didn't see him coming or going. He lobbed his attack from a home base of anonymity and then ran away. I hear there are folks like him who make that type of blogosphere hit-and-run a way of life. Oh my word. He almost got the best of me. Thankfully, I know myself and my mission far better than does he. So, I soldier on instead of being quieted by the fury of his attack.

I know the truth of my own life experiences and purpose for this blog. I recognize that there will be consequences for my courage in maintaining this blog. Sadly, I will meet folks like my anonymous visitor. That consequence is one I accept even if it requires that I make a slight change to the format of my blog.

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Thankfully, I will be far more aware of those of you who have walked with me, come out of the shadows of anonymity, and shared your story as well. When our paths cross and you quietly pull me aside to thank me for sharing my journey, I will remember him. When you tell me about a friend who has never felt worthy to darken the door of a church but is now a regular attender because of my story, I will think of him. When you email me to tell me that you no longer feel alone in your fear, I will remember him. When you tell me your faith is stronger because I have been willing to speak out of my weakness, I will think of him.

This is my blog. It is my story. It is my journey. Ergo...the pronoun 'I' will appear often. Truthfully, there have been many days when I thought of the issue my anonymous commenter raised before he raised it. His point is, if offered in a different voice, valid. As I examined my heart before I met him and since, I sigh in relief. Your responses prove that I have decreased in your eyes as the one who created me he has increased in your hearts. I am glad I met you before I met Mr. Anonymous. :-) I hope you are glad you met me! 

 

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Oh, fraidy cat, welcome home. I'm so glad you found this quiet place because the world is so full of people like him. We all need a place to take a deep breath, rest, and know the folks around us know our name. Come back tomorrow, and bring a friend? Love you long and strong. See you soon? 
  

Timothy 1:12b (NIV)

Yet I am not ashamed, because I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him for that day.

A Kinder, Gentler Life Diet

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I'd love to tell you I embraced the plan flawlessly. Alas, I'm not that kinda girl. In the past, I thought a lot about change but did very little of it. Bobbing and weaving from one crisis to another kept me from making long term plans beyond necessary decisions re schooling our boys. After that, my long term goal was to survive. Am I alone in that living-to-survive experience? Something tells me I'm not.

I know I must be in good company because Reader's Digest released a diet book a few years ago aptly titled Change One. The premise is simple: change one eating habit a day, beginning with breakfast menus, and gradually take control of your weight loss battle. I thought that book was made for people like me who had a hard time with grand revisions of life. It was a plan that was so easy a slacker like me could not fail. I did make some changes. I sold the book in a yard sale. It seemed like a great improvement at the time.

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That book has come back to haunt me as 2011 has become 2012. Every time I turn around, I hear it whisper, “Change one.” I'm a slow learner but, eventually, I got what my memory was trying to tell me. It is time to embrace change and to begin doing so in a kinder, gentler way...one thing at the time. Time for the Change One Thing at a Time Life Diet, it is.

If I pursue that goal only 5 days a week, I will have moved 20 steps toward new goals and a new life in only a month. If it works, I might write a book. After I think of a new title. Reader's Digest took mine.

I decided to set only 3 goals this week. You know how afraid I am of goals and lists. May I, at this point, advise you to invest in smelling salt stock? I see myself going through a lot of them in the next few days. If I last that long. Don't say I didn't warn you if you don't get rich quick.

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How is it kinder you ask? Because if I did my usual Type A thing, I'd make a notebook full of lists which would reduce me to hyperventilation by the time my pen ran out of ink. So, I did make a list of long term and short term ideas to tackle over the next few months. But, I picked ONLY 3 as goals for the week. Ok...I admit. I was light-headed from the stress, but I got it under control with some bag-therapy. You know, breathing into a bag really does help.

In case you are having trouble jump starting your New Year, I'll share my plan in hopes it will inspire you to join me in my kinder, gentler life plan. If you think I wanna set off on this journey all by myself, you are C-R-A-Z-Y. I want to be able to blame it on you when I...I mean...IF I fail to reach my destination.

Goal #1: Keep a daily relationship report card.

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Just in case anyone out there in the dark and cold of cyberspace is paying attention, I figure I better put up or shut up. So, today, I put my daily report card into practice. As I went through the day, I was mindful of my grading Rubric: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. I can't say that I was a shining success and broke new ground in these areas. I can say I don't think I totally blew it in any area with the folks around me today. Whew. What a relief.

Goal #2: Make a list of long term and short term goals for both business and personal pursuits. Pick 3 short term goals to complete this week.

• Declutter our house of Christmas finery and then go thru the drawers of a desk in our living room.

• Conference call with a writer friend as we brainstorm about ways to ramp up our freelance writing businesses.
• Exercise 5 days this week and track my eating.

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Goal #3: Work toward a better routine in hopes of solving my insomnia issues.

There! That wasn't so hard was it? The only troublesome issue is that my notebook is staring at me. Really hard. Trying to bring out the Type A in me. Old habits die hard, but I have determined that this will be a kinder, gentler year. Starting today.

So, what are you waiting for? Let's de-clutter our lives together. Fraidy cats are almost always afraid of change. You don't think I can make all this happen by myself do you? Take a few minutes and ponder a gentler, kinder life. Get ready to put yours into action along with me. What do you say? We are fraidy cats. Hear us roar.

M-E-O-W

Proverbs 22: 29 (Amplified Bible)

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Do you see a man diligent and skillful in his business? He will stand before kings; he will not stand before obscure men.

Proverbs 31: 27 (Amplified Bible)

She looks well to how things go in her household, and the bread of idleness (gossip, discontent, and self-pity) she will not eat. 

If you, like me, struggle to escape the chains of the past, consider this truth as we face the future together! 

...in With the New

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The ball has dropped, the fireworks have faded, and the Thanksgiving to New Year's season is in our rear view mirror. Now we run the gauntlet of life until the next holiday provides a change of pace. Those of us with school-aged children gaze longingly at the horizon of time eager for the end of the school year to come into our view. By February, we wonder if we will last that long. By March, we wonder if our children will!

Many of us look in the rear view mirror of time and feel a twinge of angst. We see all that we did not accomplish: weight not lost, projects not completed, relationships not mended. Before we know it, the combination of failed resolutions and dark winter days sap us of momentum and rob us of our optimism. Sprinkle the gnawing day to day crises of life into the mix, and it is easy to feel that one can never meet the demands of the day with any satisfaction.

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As I've pondered the media blitz re New Year's resolutions and Facebook chatter about the pro's and con's of those efforts, I've felt both excitement and trepidation. This last year has been full of healing restoration. Bit by bit, I feel a foundation coming together that will allow me to accomplish more than I'd ever imagined. Being the fraidy cat that I am, it doesn't take long for me to doubt myself. I am not a goal setter nor a list maker. What am I thinking?

In the last year, I have realized that I feel two emotions with excessive intensity. I feel exceedingly responsible for things over which I have no control and for things that rightly belong to others to 'own'. That heightened sense of responsibility often leads to a sensation of being blameworthy...as if I'm waiting to be found deficient in some way for some thing.

I am not a perfectionist, but I carry enough Type A persona in my genes that it is easy for me to stack the deck against myself. The cycle becomes vicious. My Type A self takes responsibility for too much for too many leading me to feel blameworthy if anyone is frustrated, uncomfortable, or unhappy. Isn't it easy for moms to feel that way? The joke goes: if mamma ain't happy, nobody is. The truth is: if anyone is NOT happy, neither is mamma!

2012 Begins

With all those thoughts in mind, this year I have resolved to be kinder and gentler with myself. I am working toward making our family feel like more of a team by finding ways for us to work together. To that end, my sons now trade off sole responsibility for laundry, kitchen, trash, and bathroom upkeep along with other projects as needed.

Imagine my surprise when Son #2 asked, “Hey, what else are we going to get to do with this new plan.” Yea. I fainted dead away. Who'd have thought one prefers doing the laundry over the kitchen and trash duties and vice versa. What a happy coincidence and win-win for us all!

2 are better than 1....especially when both write

There is method to my madness. A friend and I have agreed to support each other and hold each other accountable for growing our freelance writing businesses. The fellas understand that they are on my support team. Their efforts free me up to focus more on growing my business. In choosing to lean on a friend for support and accountability, I have again chosen a kinder, gentler future.

A few years ago, a wise friend told me that she keeps a checklist of the Fruits of the Spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. As she reviews her day, she considers how she would mark her report card. Has she effectively practiced those fruits as she has related to folks around her?

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In an effort to be a kinder, gentler me, I am going to practice that same discipline this year. Perhaps you'd like to join me in that effort? Imagine the affect on road rage if everyone used those parameters in traffic? Imagine the drop in snarky Facebook posts if we all used those parameters to grade our daily report cards.

I have decided that if someone is unhappy, frustrated, or uncomfortable, it is not my job to rush into the fray and fix it for them. Life is hard. Success comes as one learns to manage the frustrating and uncomfortable for oneself. I hope I learned that before it is too late! Now, let's see how long I can live up to that high goal! It will be hard to bite my tongue and let my sons yammer away till they reach a truce. Anyone have a leather strap I can chew on while I wait?

So, fraidy cat, what about you? As the New Year dawns are you weary, worn out, wondering how you'll get thru today much less face tomorrow? Always waiting for someone, somewhere to point out your deficiencies? Are you like me and rushing headlong into the gap of life to fix the hard stuff when someone around you is frustrated or uncomfortable?

NM 2011

Walk with me for a while? Let's take a kinder, gentler approach with ourselves, each other, and our families. This last 7 months have been an amazing ride here in this little corner of the cyber-universe. Don't you wonder what 2012 will bring and where it will take us? Come back tomorrow, and bring a friend. Tell them you've found a home for fraidy cats who want to come in from the cold.

Love you long and strong. See you soon! 

 

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Galations 5: 22-23 (NASB)

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. 

Here is one of my favorite songs: