Thursday, February 2, 2012

A Pregnant Pause....

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Four conspirators stumbled down the darkened pathway shushing one another when breathless snickers threatened to become hearty echoing peals of laughter. The late spring blush of new leaves and ferns provided some camouflage but not enough to muffle the commotion following them down the path from cabins to lake. The tree frog chorus was deafening cover. If not, the motley crew would surely have been discovered. They resembled excited puppies discovering freedom after being dumped from a basket to play.

Breaking out into the clearing, the group stared back up at the quiet cabins listening to make sure they had not wakened the sleeping campers. Nodding reassurance to one another, they moved over to the canoe and began to ease the aluminum hulk into the water. Nervous laughter again threatened to erupt like a fire alarm when the canoe began to rock and pitch. More shushing followed the sound of muffled laughter. So close and yet so far. Don't ruin it now.

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The dance of twinkling stars over the surface of the lake rivaled sugar plum fairies dancing across the stage of The Nutcracker ballet. She leaned over the side of the canoe to see her own face staring back from inky nothingness. A chill of delight crept up her spine as the canoe eased away from the shore. The moon had not yet risen. Anticipation mounted as they headed for the middle of the lake. All day they had waited for this moonrise. All year. Now it was here.

Even now, decades later, the memory is so crisp that she can feel the velvety softness of the lake air and hear the frogs sing. The frog chorus seemed to echo in four part harmony: “Fat ba-by, fat ba-by,” until her brain all but exploded from the racket.

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The 4 sat in easy, peaceful silence allowing the canoe to drift as it would. A lighter flared, and the smell of hot tobacco began to fill the air. An occasional, whispered sentence or 2 caused the other 3 to lean toward the speaker lest the symphony of the night drown out the words. 

Two moons lit the valley of darkness, the one in the sky and the reflected one in the lake, turning the night-black trees silver. One dipped a paddle in the water filling the water-moon with ripples. Its master in the sky rose higher and higher. The blinding splendor was almost more than hearts could stand. All too soon, the long awaited show was over, but the night was young.

Hey! Let's ease to the bank over there and see if we can find the monster making all that racket. That croaker must be 15 pounds or more.” The paddles cut the water without a sound – a necessity given the clandestine nature of their caper. The canoe carried the conspirators closer to the bank and up under the tree branches.

The smoker spoke again, “Darren, ease over a bit more. Sometimes, snakes fall out of the trees. Maybe one will land in her lap.” He doubles over in quiet laughter dropping his cigarette into the lake. At the sound of the word 'snake', Darren reacts as violently as the smoker thought she would react. In his haste to back-paddle away from the threat, he forgets the need for secrecy.

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The sharp retort of paddle and canoe echoed up and down and around the valley as if a thunderstorm had been building steam for all of a long, hot, dry summer. Time stood still. The night noises stopped so suddenly that it seemed the gang of 4 had gone deaf. No one dared breathe until the mountain chorus broke into night songs again. What of the campers? Did they sleep on?

Above the din, a screen door slammed. The men heaved to, and the canoe returned the way it had come, only faster. Duty called. Suspension of reality had been sweet, sweeter still knowing it would last but for a brief shining moment in time. The pregnant pause in time, when silence echoed over the valley, sealed the memory for all time.

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Minutes gave way to years. The memories dimmed. She had almost forgotten the night when time stood still. Funny how one thing makes you think of another. Excited conversation bubbled back and forth across the lunch-time table. Best laid plans were falling into place. Adrenaline was high. His words were as jarring as the sound of a paddle exploding against canoe.

Time stood still as life became momentarily surreal. It was as if the jarring had transported her back across time. She could see and feel and hear the caper on the lake but was trapped in the here and now. Wishing to be the carefree girl drifting on the lake while fairy tale stars danced just for her. Knowing this moment in time was pivotal and more than just another pregnant pause in life.
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Table chatter ceased. Deafening silence rang in her ears. She waited for conversation to flow again. This time, there were no sleeping campers nor the slam of screen doors. Only the stillness of time in her heart. She waited for her heart to beat again and for breath to fill her lungs. Her canoe was adrift in the inky blackness of life. But, where to go from here?


Psalm 121:2
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My help comes from the LORD, who made heaven and earth. 

Copyright 2012 Carol Anne Wright Swett


  1. Well, THIS one fills me with curiosity, for sure! *hugs*

    1. We will talk. I inboxed you finally. I am so thankful for encouraging friends like you. I am beyond blessed and unworthy of the confidence and support you all invest in me!